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Take a breath for a second, God I'm feeling lightheaded
In this moment I've got double vision
I'm huffing in nothing but sick superstition
Got ghosts inside me free loading
This trouble isn't subtle it's laying siege on me
'till I let my walls crumble
It's more work than it's worth not to fall apart
Like you're made of dead rot and rubble
Maybe I've got nothing good to say
Maybe I ain't so profound
I can't control the way my body shakes
When there's no way to calm down
I can't handle
All the ways that time deceives me
I'll just lay here
I'll wait to reset, wait to reset
There's no evil
In the motives that I cling to
And yet I feel so regretful
I want to change that, want to change that
In my chest I feel pressure yet deflated
Oh how do I measure the weight of indecision
And what ways do I shake the mistakes
Causing this shame that I cannot live in
In the nights I often find myself picking fights
With opponents that I should not challenge
But what fun can be had when the love is held back
to protect myself from the sadness?
Maybe I just need air
To quench thirst and take care, think slower
But that train of thought feeds off the sickness
Wakes me in the morning
Holds me to the illness
I give in to
Moving tracks and rearview mirrors
Exit ramps but I don't want to
Walk alone, I can't walk alone it's
Far too simple
My solutions cause more damage
I can't trust this
Poor intuition
Indecision
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2. |
Prince
04:15
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I think I love the curse that drives me this insane
Call me Alvin Flames
I confess to living life like I'm your pet
And I know you don't believe that a dog like me is tame
Prince is my new name
I can save you from anyone that could ever try and hurt you
I found salvation in a pond that told me all about you
I had no home and still you loved me all the same
I hide my secret in the shadow of a nightly curfew
A golden dog who goes by Prince or Alvin Flames
I heard your world is green, my heart is the same shade
Fen Tian gave me fame
Now I seem to give the world something to believe in
Hold down the poor reviews, a critic is a pain
I came here to say
Love is just a leash we hold when we get closer
I found salvation in a pond that told me all about you
I had no home and still you loved me all the same
I hide my secret in the shadow of a nightly curfew
A golden dog who goes by Prince or Alvin Flames
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Trying
04:27
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Not feeling myself, not feeling at home
I can't keep all these thoughts outside of dome
And I laugh it all off, could it possibly hurt?
Or can't you see it in my smile and hear it in my words?
I'm trying to love something
Nothing really needs any love from me
All I need is a place where I can run
'Cus I can't run
I'm trying to care about something
Nothing really needs any care from me
All I need is a place where I can sleep
'Cus I can't sleep
Not feeling too much, not feeling at all
I'm too numb to feel good so I won't feel the fall
And it's easy to think I know what I've got
But not until I'm dead will I know what I want
Don't give a fuck about nothin'
Nothin' ever gave a good fuck about me
All I need is a place where I can hide
'Cus I can't hide
And all I care about is money
Money couldn't care any less about me
All I need is a place where I can be
'Cus I can't be
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4. |
Bonfire Song
03:01
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Bundle of wood, get three
I wanna feel heat burnin' my knees
Smell like smoke all day
Wash your coat, it won't go away
And I don't mind, that's why
I got a fire outside every night
Holding my mug
Watch it go up
Lately I've been cold
Breath in smoke, I know
Bad for the lungs, worse for my soul
Hold her hand, I'm warm
The fire is dim, I need more
Keeping it hot, my job
There ain't no point and there ain't no logs
It's getting dark
Smoke in my heart
Lately... Lately...
Insides on fire
Eyes are so tired
Lately I've been
Holding her hand
Real warmth at last
Lately I've been cold
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Tom Hanks' Bday Party
03:33
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I met a man, he was best friends with a ball
He was trapped and all alone but somehow he's made it home
So let's party like it's Tom Hanks' birthday
I wish I was friends with him
I met a man and he wore a cowboy hat
And his best friend is from space, in his boot there lives a snake
Can't I live forever like I'm Woody?
Maybe then I'd have no fear
Tom Hanks won't you save me with distraction?
Tom Hanks help me disappear
I met a man and he wasn't very smart
But his heart was big and kind, and he ran so far and wide
Can't I live so plainly like I'm forest?
Can't I think the way he does?
I met a man and he wanted to be big
So he saw a fortune teller and he magically got older
Like a child in a grown man's body
I feel like I'm out of place
Like the man named Tom who is my savior
Makes me feel like I'm okay
Invite me to his birthday
It's Tom Hanks' party
'Cus he's the one who I love so much
Invite me to this evening
It is so special
Invite me there, 'cus I want to have fun
It's nine July
He was born a gift to us
Makes me feel special
Makes me feel good
He fills up my soul
My heart is here for him because he's the best Tom of all
And it's his birthday, let's throw a party just for him
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He fell going for a new trick
Now he's embarrassed
So are his parents
Throw out your skateboard
And he's scared of scraping his knee cap
Picking the scab
It's making him bleed
Man, why can't he see that?
Well he don't know how to behave
Maybe that's why he acts dumb
Part of him wants to be safe
Part of him loves the pavement
New crowd, trying to fit in with them
Forgetting his friends
He's paying for cigs
That he isn't smoking
Lonesome, thinking that he's better off
Hiding his face
And changing his name
He won't be the same as everyone else
He never lands any tricks
Falling is what makes him feel there
Pickin' his arms and his legs
Laying on blacktop
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Another Summer Day
02:22
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8. |
Totem Talk
04:45
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Wash my boots, get clay in the drain
Drunk space cowboy asleep in the rain
I'm done stealing light to show that I'm having fun
I wish time was irrelevant, I wouldn't chase the sun
Sit on the floor and think I'm the shit
Sad conversation and a poor mindset
Got a jacket on my chest goes well with the drink in my hand
Yeah, I'm dreaming 'bout this life that I know I can't have
And I'm cashed out
Totem talk feeling so dumb and wishing like hell
I don't have a thing to prove
These nights got me all fucked up
I'm doomed, I'm doomed
Upset stomach and neglect my lunch
Wanna chill out but the pedal is stuck
A rotten endeavor, it's so damn hard to feel good
I'd take back all that I've done, if only I could
An off switch hidden in a circular glass
A new train of thought buried in the grass
Ain't one or the other, no fork in an endless road
Yeah, we laugh at each other and we say nice things for show
But we know that it keeps us...
Worn down
Totem talk eating my guts and spittin' them out
Washing off bloody hands
Yeah, I wanna be clean but I can't
No I can't, No I can't
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All Wrong
03:09
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I just wanna go swimming in the lake
But I need a friend to keep me safe
I travel north, get lost on my beat ass bike
The warm air on my cold heart keeps me right
And I don't keep track anymore
It's not worth all that pain
Looking at yourself too long
Looking through your eyes all wrong
I been thinking too much these days
It don't really do much anyway
Does it even matter? Fuck no
I'm so sick of all the bullshit
I think that you know me too well
Even more than I know myself
Maybe you can give me advice
What to do with...
And I don't keep track anymore
It's not worth all that pain
Looking at yourself too long
Looking through your eyes all wrong
And I don't keep track anymore
It's not worth all that pain
Looking at yourself too long
Looking through your eyes all wrong
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